When everyone is busy partying away at Shangri-La Hotel tonight, I’m stuck in my room with nothing to do but packing up my stuff and blogging. The feeling is simply horrible - people are enjoying the final and last gathering with their schoolmates and I’m just sitting here idling.
A few people asked me for the reason for skipping prom. I hate to repeat them here, but I felt so bad and rotten inside I just feel like saying everything out. I would love to spare my readers the boring rhetorics and my never-ending complaints about life, but there is just this overwhelming need to clear things up.
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I skipped prom because I wanted to go home early, but sadly my parents got tied up with this nasty renovation job at home that took ages to complete, so they’ll have to postpone their trip down to fetch me home. I was initially angry and disappointed as first, because I deliberately skipped prom for this, and now I’ll still have to wait here for them to get me back. I spent some time reflecting and realised I’m acting like a total brat and like a spoilt kid - it’s not their fault anyway. I could only watch myself fuming at myself.
Then there was this thing about nobody likes me and doesn’t want me to attend prom. Since for the prom thing we’ll have to sit in tables of 10, so everyone was busy snapping up the seats when the order form came a few months ago. I told this person in my class that I would love to sit with them, and I’m not sure whether is it a genuine mistake or a deliberate attempt to single me out, I was left out of the table. I was kind of expecting this because there are 11 guys in my class and since I’m the most unsociable one, I’ll be the one who has to go.
I’ve got several invitations to purchase prom night tickets and sit with my friends but that horrible realisation that nobody I know really appreciate my presence, it would be best for me to just not go, get out of their faces so as not to spoil their wonderful night and to make me feel like the most miserable person on earth. Now I’ve gotten out of your face, so you people have fun tonight. You know who you are, don’t start spamming me emails asking am I that person who made you write that? I’m really sorry and I should’ve invited you earlier and bla bla bla. Enough is enough, and I’m tired of all your excuses. Just go, and leave me alone.
I’ve got a few very close friends who saw it a pity for me not going. I know who you are, and thanks for being by my side all the time. You people are the most wonderful angels I’ve met in my life. You let me tell you all my dirty little secrets without spilling even half a bean, you let me explain myself when I find myself in trouble… you gave me the chance to live like a normal person, and not like some people who chose to treat me like a disposable appendage or a expendable accessory.
What really kills me is that for all the things I’ve done for you people (those who abandoned me, not those who bailed me out of my problems), you gave me nothing in return. Yes, I’m the one who proudly brandishes his idea that friendship should not be treated as an investment and so we should not expect anything in return, but you people didn’t even treat me as a friend at the first place. You treated me as if I have the moral obligation to do things you’ve asked me to, which sadly I don’t, but I still gave you whatever I had.
Thinking on the bright side of things, skipping prom night saved me from punching a gaping hole in my wallet, and I could use the money saved to buy things that makes me happier… like mudpie 
the best comfort food for me on earth, so far. And I also saved myself from a great deal of embarrassment (Gosh! I thought that social freak isn’t coming!!!)… well at least something good came out of my decision.
I’m finally going home tomorrow. I’ll be leaving all these sad things behind. Goodbye.
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December 5th, 2007 at 3:56 am
Prom is no biggie. You don’t miss anything by not going to prom. I went and I left early. Eating roti tisu with my prom dress at a mamak stall was 99% of the fun for me. So don’t feel left out. Besides, university is just around the corner. That’s way more fun than any high school prom.
December 5th, 2007 at 6:38 pm
cheer up coussie
see ya around soon ya!!
and yea..u still have uni which is much more fun man hehehe
December 7th, 2007 at 8:27 am
hello terryyyyyyyyyy! (: Don’t be upset anymore! Your presence was greatly missed during prom! Must come back to visit us alright! Merry christmas in advance! (:
December 7th, 2007 at 2:22 pm
prom is a night where everyone is taking pictures
prom is a night where everyone wil spend alot to dress up
prom is a nite where alot of friend attend but u stil dun get to have fun w dem.
prom is a nite where u look at the food but u dun feel like eating it.
dun worry… there wil stil have many prom awaiting for you
December 7th, 2007 at 6:00 pm
adik,
dun be sad ok…
its quite sad for not be able to attend the prom..
hmmm,, dun care abt the “classmates” of u ok..
its already over ok..
i want my adik to be happy ok..
enjoy ur holidays!!
December 7th, 2007 at 8:52 pm
hey teddy. aw prom night, what a pity. but its alright, its not the end of the world (yet). yay that your going home, its a new chapter when you get back, so dont think about the past anymore. happy holidays
December 8th, 2007 at 8:58 pm
hey look on the bright side, u won’t be spending money and worrying about how will you look for prom night. Instead, you can use those money and buy something useful instead!! It’s just another occasion where we spend times with friends. Don’t worry, you’ll have plenty of time to spend quality time with your friends more meaningfully!! And you have lots of prom nights ahead of you. So not going to high school prom is really okay. Can spend some quality time with yourself and indulging yourself in the yummylicious mudpie. xD
December 8th, 2007 at 11:53 pm
hey terry! dont get so upset for missing prom yupp? (: the class photo was also incomplete without you anyway! ohh yupp, do hope you enjoy ur stay at malaysia, keep blogging so yeah we get to know abt each other’s lives even you are in msia!
take care!
December 9th, 2007 at 1:07 am
I enjoyed my junior prom better than my senior prom, but even with that, I do agree with the other comments (namely Ivy — hi, Ivy!) because the prom is just one event and there are going to be so many other things happening for you in the future. Frankly, I think you made a choice not going to your prom and aligned it well with when you stated your reservations, whether it be regarding friends, money, or whatever. Call it a collectivist mentality, but yes, being around the right people does count in having a good prom night. I know the reason why I had good proms back in high school was because I was with the right people.
But at the end of the day, the prom defines little for what your life is about. There are so many things in the future that you can look forward to, such as college, and that part of your life is definitely a blast. I speak from experience, hehe!
Great weblog! I love the way you write. It’s articulate and so honest. =) All the best for your vacation!
December 9th, 2007 at 10:28 am
i’ve never been to a prom…haha
December 9th, 2007 at 4:15 pm
I think you think way too much, seriously. But prom’s no biggy anyway, nothing to miss out on. High School proms are nothing compared to that in college proms with the booze and partyiny
December 10th, 2007 at 2:20 am
hey dun b sad..
i din go 4 my prom too…
e wrld stil evolve & life cont even if pp din go 4 proms
so cheer up kays!??
December 10th, 2007 at 7:36 pm
Before I start my replies, here’s something I need to say - thank you all for your comments! I’m really thankful that you all cared… it was just a moment of weakness of mine, although till now I still do not dare (or I was just plain unwilling?) to view the photos of prom my friends have uploaded into their facebook accounts and etc. Anyway thank you all again! You people are just wonderufl angels. Here’s a big hug for you all!
Ivy: I kind of agree with you. I don’t lose much by skipping prom, but I’m missing the last chance to get together with my schoolmates. Or does that not matter anymore, since we’ve the Internet and we don’t lose each other even after graduation
LOL you wore your prom dress to a mamak stall after leaving prom early? That’s the coolest thing I’ve ever heard!
medca: Hey thanks! I really do hope I’ll get a complete fresh start when I get to my choice of university!
yueqi: I will come back to Singapore of course
to get my A Level results next years (and I’m having my fingers crossed! gee!)… and I might be even continuing my uni in Singapore, but it’s just tentative. Anyway, thanks!
lunaticgal: I don’t actually look forward to prom anymore, but I hope my uni will have one eventually! But yea as what you’ve said nobody really eats during prom! According to a senior of mine she told me that the food served was virtually untouched throughout the event because everyone was busy cam-whoring! LOL!
iwan: Hey abang thanks for commenting! Actually it’s not really my classmates - most of them are outside my class, and for some reason I don’t know how they dislike me. Hmph. Anyway thanks!
Rei: Yea it’s not the end of the world (yet). LOL! I love the “yet” you’ve added. It’s kinda humourous! I’m glad that I’m back home now, feasting on mom’s homecook food and sleeping on my own comfy bed
thanks for your encouragement, websis! You’re great. Anyway happy holidays to you too!
Melissa: Yea I saved myself from a lot of trouble - unlike my friends I didn’t rush out to Orchard or Vivo during weekends to avoid the crowd to get my prom shopping done! And I saved a huge lot of money too! Yeah mudpie. The best comfort food on earth (unless I’ve found a better substitute next time!)…
`eunice: Hey there thanks for commenting! Ah wells I will continue blogging of course, since I told myself before that I will only stop blogging when I’m dead
that sounds really stupid but I hope this blog will stay here forever (until when I’m dead, that is)… will check out your blogs for happenings in your life! Thanks and here’s a big huggg for you!
Marz: Hey thanks for dropping by! I never expected you comment on this because haha, I thought that you’ll just be too tired reading my boring rantings
nonetheless thanks for your insightful comment, it makes me feel really much better!
LogicYuan: Don’t worry! When you go to uni you’ll surely have one!
Dude.: Thanks for your comment! There’s no high school prom for me, since my school never organised one, so there’s no base of comparison. Like what Marz said what really matters is hanging out with the right people that makes prom fun!
nadinako: Hey nice advise! Haha thanks for your comment! It brightened me up!
December 14th, 2007 at 11:40 am
hey dude….dun feel so sad….but i pity u being isolated fr ur classmates….it really sux when u r in foreign land n cant find any fren….but at least now u r done wit jc life….
so which uni u going too?